Back to Reality

Back in Singapore, 3 months of homemaker life in USA. Wanted very much to do more in USA but somehow I just let time slip as usual. Many asked me, did I enjoy myself there? I would not say no but I would not say yes very much too. I do not know the answer in fact, what I can say is, it was a different experience and I think it is good in shaping my thoughts. :)

Different environment, lifestyle, and culture. Feel that one should be more dynamic and who care what will be like next, treasure now and just plan for future when possible.

Yesterday hubby asks me did I regret marrying him because many of my friends around me seem to marry well-off hubby... Well how to answer that? I am human, and am a human with greed. I do envy them, but I have been more truthfully this time... I answered: "Its not you that I regret marrying, it’s your family that make me regret marrying into."

I remember the two events in USA when he loss his temper and walkout on Estella and me. I remember how I tears because of all the unhappy memories his family have left in me during my supposedly one of the happiest period before marriage life start.