Achievement in Life

Last nite I am looking at others facebook, while doing that I also think about my achievement in life so far...
I envy people who have kids (a boy and a girl), can balance work and family. They got their promotion and have their kids all at the right timing.

Not that I am very poor or very worse off, but I feel very tired and not at my personal peak. I am pulling certain thing along in life. I wanted to perform at work and able to spend my time with my kids and family.

Was tired and angry with hubby for not helping me. Alot of time I think he can do more to ease my load, but instead of helping, he added load on me. He cannot help by managing the kids, and tidying the flat. Worse he add on to make me wake up early and not sleeping well by allowing his alam to sound non stop early in the morning... :(