Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Another CNY Quarrel

This is the 7th day after CNY, and the 6th day after our quarrel...

I find it harder and harder to balance, and I am angry with what he said to me.

1) First he quarrel with me b'cos of his mum, and now from bad to worse. Quarrel with me b'cos of his aunt... who am I to him at that instant? Not even comparable or closer to him then his aunt.

2) His aunt comment:"懂得赚,要懂得花" - 可是也要看花在那里啊。。。What's wrong to complaint about him gambling and losing $$? I have all along make it clear that I dun like large amount gamble, and it is true that he lost $130 on the reunion day and on first day of CNY he loss another $100 (to me that is a lot).

3) On top of that, during our quarrel, how can he said I am no different to the guy in my office whom I mentioned before (I felt betrayed at that instant, cos I trusted him, that's why I share with him my office stuff, but he use that to attack me)

4) He actually mention if I think his is not good, why not marry my brother-in-law. How can he make such a remark? Last time he dare to compare me to his "ex-girlfriend" and today he dare to make such remark, think I have no reason to save face for him. During our future quarrel I will definitely ask him to go and marry his "ex-girlfriend" or his brother wife-to-be, since one can call his mum and another is rich for his family to look upon.

But I do not feel inferior to any of them, cos I know myself. His ex-girlfriend can betray him for another guy, while his brother wife-to-be is rich cos of his father not cos she herself is a high earner...

I believe in myself and I will prove to myself and my kids that their mummy is responsible enough to bring them up with love.