Life

Haha.. back again.. Have not been blogging...
Recently many things happen again. Mostly good things. :)

I got promoted.. and one aquitance in the organisation from another project commented:
"Wow.. this project have brought u good luck throughout these years.."

How come I never notice it or think so till she mention?
And to sum it, she is right.. :)

2007 - Enter this project; fresh and met a tough boss, make me feel that I chose a wrong path to enter this organisation. Lucky my "Best Partner" was there, we went throught our customary wedding.

2008 - Just when I feel very stuck upon seeing my peers in ex-co moving up and I am in this project hanging or drowning... I got myself a family status promotion to "Mummy".

2009 - Was a period for me to recuperate and also enjoy both family time and work. I need to get use to being in parenthood life and at work I have alot to catch up, espically to learn from both my seniors whom have 10 years experience in this organisation.

2010 - News of chance for my career to take off came in, but at the same time I am torn in between family and career. My hubby wanted another child and both of us think 2 years age gap is best. In the end I chose family and had my 2nd gal.

2011 - My career took off a bit in this organisation, got an award in May and finally got my promotion in Oct. I feel appreciated, but again came the question of: to chose between family and experience life in USA or my Career?

Hungry Soul

In this city we often seem so enriched.. But deep down inside we may be so empty and poor...

Fall in Love Again

Once again fell in love, in drama but not real life (Wahaha!!). Fall in love watching Taiwan idol drama.. ESP looking at those handsome actor courting sweet actress in the show.. Is this consider an act of self deceiving? Since I dun get such privilege in reality.. Hum.. A sense of sweetness in my sadness.. Haha.. :p

Life Partner

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I always thought that I will share my happiness and tears most with my life partner, but time and reality prove me wrong.Most of the time he is not around to share and when we meet it is not in the correct mood or time to share what I have encounter during the day.

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"Every man for its own..." I realise even so for my partner. Not sure to think of it as his insensitive or me too sensitive. He totally ignore my feeling and our kids. So it is still him and his family more important for all the body checkup and Hep B. I realise throughout the whole episode he never mention about me and our kids. I feel so... Disappointed.

Never mind he dun think for me, I will think for my kids, my family and myself . I just need to be more independent, like what I told him before I will build the shield that I need to protect myself and my real family.

Mature Mature

I think I am still not that Mature after all...

This year I am disappointed with my B'day.
Hum... my closer friends either forget or never really got time to celebrate with me.

Worse is my hubby never really celebrate for me, althought he think that he already bring me to KL, but to me that trip is for the whole family (including our maid).
I want exclusive when come to celebrate my Birthday...

Past years I may have forgot about friends too, cos hubby will exclusively bring me out for dinner or hotel stay to make up for missing out on friends. This year I got none. No gift, no true bday cake, no exclusive celebration for me... :(

System - Make Singapore Loss Good MP

What is a "System"?

Human being created system to help us at work but often then not we become slave of the system.

We worked hard day and night to create and maintain system. When an old system does not work fine we will refine it. But as time goes by people tend to forget and start to work blindly for the system they have created.
Not only did they not do the cost benefit anaylsis, they also didn't realise that others are playing with the system to bring in more harm that benefit.

Take this year election for example:
From what I understand the initial idea of GRC is to have group representation, so that minority will be represented. But look at this year, because of this system, we lose George Yeo and in another GRC we got TPL?

How can veteran MP like Mr Yeo and Mr Chiam not in parliament while people like TPL got in? It really puzzle me alot what is happening? why did we have this system to create so much unfairness.

GRC system makes Singaporean loss good MP like George Yeo and Chiam See Tong.
To be true.. Those we lost are all good MPs, they do not have many unwanted feedbacks from S'porean.
Some who are in the parliament are those that S'porean want to complaint about.. Really what is this about?

Achievement in Life

Last nite I am looking at others facebook, while doing that I also think about my achievement in life so far...
I envy people who have kids (a boy and a girl), can balance work and family. They got their promotion and have their kids all at the right timing.

Not that I am very poor or very worse off, but I feel very tired and not at my personal peak. I am pulling certain thing along in life. I wanted to perform at work and able to spend my time with my kids and family.

Was tired and angry with hubby for not helping me. Alot of time I think he can do more to ease my load, but instead of helping, he added load on me. He cannot help by managing the kids, and tidying the flat. Worse he add on to make me wake up early and not sleeping well by allowing his alam to sound non stop early in the morning... :(

Another CNY Quarrel

This is the 7th day after CNY, and the 6th day after our quarrel...

I find it harder and harder to balance, and I am angry with what he said to me.

1) First he quarrel with me b'cos of his mum, and now from bad to worse. Quarrel with me b'cos of his aunt... who am I to him at that instant? Not even comparable or closer to him then his aunt.

2) His aunt comment:"懂得赚，要懂得花" - 可是也要看花在那里啊。。。What's wrong to complaint about him gambling and losing $$? I have all along make it clear that I dun like large amount gamble, and it is true that he lost $130 on the reunion day and on first day of CNY he loss another $100 (to me that is a lot).

3) On top of that, during our quarrel, how can he said I am no different to the guy in my office whom I mentioned before (I felt betrayed at that instant, cos I trusted him, that's why I share with him my office stuff, but he use that to attack me)

4) He actually mention if I think his is not good, why not marry my brother-in-law. How can he make such a remark? Last time he dare to compare me to his "ex-girlfriend" and today he dare to make such remark, think I have no reason to save face for him. During our future quarrel I will definitely ask him to go and marry his "ex-girlfriend" or his brother wife-to-be, since one can call his mum and another is rich for his family to look upon.

But I do not feel inferior to any of them, cos I know myself. His ex-girlfriend can betray him for another guy, while his brother wife-to-be is rich cos of his father not cos she herself is a high earner...

I believe in myself and I will prove to myself and my kids that their mummy is responsible enough to bring them up with love.