What I have Loss and What I have Gain??

Last nite went for a gathering with my ex colleagues (my first batch of colleague when I just started work). Come to think about it that was about 10 to 11 years ago... We have all move on, mostly in life and at work in other projects (except for some of us who change company or quit and rejoined)

During the conversation, I realise how different each of us are now. A few of them did not come for last nite gathering (and they are mostly the high flyers in office and is busy - that explain why they couldn't make it)

Somehow I feel a bit set back... cos since school days I have been worrying that I cannot catch up with others and is not as good as others, and today when I do a reflection, I am indeed slower in a sense.

Among them I am consider fast only in term of setting up family cos I am now into my 2nd Pregnancy (most of them is either just married or with 1 kids), but this only proof to slow me down in my career movement. I am not complaining that I regret, just that somehow somewhere within me I need to balance this feeling of being slower in career progression.

I feel the dilemma of wanting a happy family, spend time with my family and kids, and being a high flyer at work (if I ever can) and commit much of my time at work.