Failure in Real Life

Had wanted a simple life with beautiful love, but real life is just not as happy as stories where ending is "happily ever after..."

Had all along thought I will be a lovely wife, but under certain scenario I just can't... Imagination is always more easy and beautiful than real life.

After 1st, thought I learn to be more mature and in control of my temper.

After 2nd, thought I am more mature and independent.

Erm.. all these are fake... I am more mature, more controlled and independent only initially.. then back to old self.

I can't proudly face my first two failure, and compare how much I have improved...