Voluntary Work

Last Sunday (22nd April 2007) I went to join a voluntary program. :)

Initially feel quite lose cos was alone without any close friend with me, but soon got use to it. It was easy to blend in the group when you are doing voluntary work. Early in the morning, we went to Old Airport Road, gather and take our attendance, followed by accompanying the elderly to NTUC @ Bukit Panjang Plaza.

We are each attached with an elderly, and they are each issued with a S$30 voucher. It was pretty nice, as we just need to bring them around the supermarket, help them get the stuff they need. Assist them in reading the labels, calculating the costs and carrying stuff for them.

After that we proceed to lunch at Bukit Batok Civil Service Club – Hilltop Garden Restaurant. Where lunch is served and a series of entertainment programs set in for the elderly.

After the lunch we sent the elderly back and helped them carry their stuff all the way to their door step. On the way back we chat a lot and I even get to visit her one room flat in Old Airport Road. The flat was very old, according to the elderly that I am attached to; she mentions that the flat is about 50 plus year old and during that period she only need S$35 to buy the flat. (Wow... can you imagine that compare to current property market? $350 K for a flat is common)

Although I’m really tired after the whole event, but it never fail to make me feel happy and fulfilling after that. :p

Marriage Partner 1

Heehee... today on MSN with a friend and happen to mention about marriage cum parnter:

[09:29:06] friend says:
are u planning any tour ?

[09:29:47] me says:
nope, but ths weekend I will be going for a island trip.

[09:30:07] friend says:
scuba diving trip rite?

[09:30:30] me says:
yap friend's wife told u??

[09:30:46] friend says:
ya have been nagging me loh...

[09:31:03] me says:
hum? why?

[09:31:24] friend says:
say me no time to go with her on tour

[09:31:34] me says:
haha.. me's hubby also mah..

[09:31:53] me says:
actually my trip is me and some ex-colleagues friends..

[09:31:58] friend says:
but this weekend .. i got to work ..

[09:32:05] me says:
me's hubby didn't go also cos he too busy.

[09:32:10] friend says:
oh .. no me's hubby?

[09:32:19] friend says:
oic ..

[09:32:22] me says:
yar me's hubby also he said he may just stay in camp.

[09:32:43] friend says:
hmm

[09:32:56] me says:
initially I worry leaving him alone for weekend and labour day.. but he said never mind..

[09:33:10] friend says:
hmm ...

[09:33:20] friend says:
ok ..

[09:33:40] friend says:
friend's wife don't like to go out with her friends ..

[09:33:44] friend says:
dun know why ..

[09:33:53] me says:
he said like that is good also cos he may stay in camp and then no need to worry leaving me alone..wahaha...

[09:34:35] me says:
is she all along like that? or b'cos of u?

[09:35:52] me says:
hum.. I heard comment from a friend that her world only got u and one or two colleagues only.. heehee.. tot you must feel very good to have such loving wife.

[09:36:31] me says:
sometime I am afraid I got too caught up with my own activities that I neglect me's hubby...

[09:37:31] me says:
actually I feel that I changed alot.. now I am very dependent on me's hubby.. even when I got out with friends I like him to come and fetch me and stuff like that.. haise...

[09:39:11] friend says:
its perfectly normal ..loh ..

[09:39:25] friend says:
for friend's wife case .. ya she is too dependent ..

[09:39:43] friend says:
sometimes .. i got to work ..

[09:40:26] me says:
nah.. I think gals do change a bit after marriage...

[09:41:08] me says:
that's why I feel that at times I am controlling my dependence on my partner too and the feeling is quite hard..

[09:41:16] friend says:
nop .. she is like that before we get marry ...

[09:41:33] friend says:
if me's hubby trick u well ..

[09:41:49] friend says:
i meant .. trEat u well .

[09:41:57] friend says:
it is okay .

[09:42:52] me says:
yar. so far he is okie except I sometime complain he sleep too much and didn't help me with house work wahaha,,,

[09:43:09] me says:
I think I have become weekend maid for the new hse..

[09:44:26] friend says:
friend's wife also ...

[09:44:26] friend says:
and me too ..

[09:44:26] friend says:
there is no one to clean up the hse if u dun do it .

[09:46:00] me says:
yar.. me lagi worst cos these few weekend me's hubby commit all his time to slp and study so I have to take up most of the major cleaning task...

[09:46:34] friend says:
thats bad ...

[09:46:54] friend says:
take it easy loh .. when he is free .. just ask him to help u ..

[09:47:05] friend says:
u take a break ..

[09:47:45] me says:
yap that's exactly what I am doing.. haha... got to learn to relax else will die of tiredness,,, wahaha...

My ROM Ring

Sad Sad... I lose my ROM ring...

Remember that day I woke up very early and stone cos last nite sleep at 4am.
(Hubby's university friends was at our place for mahjong)

I am late and need to be at Kallang - old airport road by 7am for C.A.R.E Project 2007.
Throughout the voluntary hours, I was playing with my ring.
The last memory I have with the ring was trying it out on my left and right hand fourth finger when on the way back to Kallang from Bukit Batok.

When back I helped the old lady to bring her stuff up her one-room flat in Old Airport Road, Had a short chat with her and proceed to the bus-stop to wait for hubby to pick me up. We then go to Kallang KFC; I was full so I just accompanied him there for late lunch (3.45pm). After the eating, hubby drove to Sun Tec. I was very tired then so we decide to quickly grab the wine that hubby want and change the M'sia Ringgit I need. We headed home soon there after.

At about 6.30pm I reached home, was so tired that I just sit on the sofa and refuse to move. Till about 7pm I finally decide to do some house work before going to my mum's place. I was clearing the tibits mess left from last nite, while hubby was sleeping on the sofa. By 8pm I asked hubby to wake up and help, cos I am really fed up...

I ask hubby to fix up some holes by applying the silicon we bought quite sometime ago.
Hubby got silicon all over his hand and I was thinking he should have removed the wedding ring first. And I thought I was safe, cos I have a feeling that my ring was well kept while I do housework.

Only at about nine after vacuuming the house, then I realized that I dun have my ring on and I couldn't find it there after. I was very tired and upset, I dun know what to do, where to find and what have happen to it... I cried that evening, not sure id b'cos I am tired, I am stress, I am upset or simply b’cos I am angry with my carelessness.
Why I can't seem to get things done properly lately??

I am UNhappy... :(

Second day, as I am on a course, so I get to knock off by 5.30pm. It was a rainy day, I am tired. Earlier I did message hubby that we will go to the KFC this evening to look for the ring, but I decided not to wait., cos he was busy recently. I pushed myself to alight at Paya Lebar MRT and walked 2 bus stop distance to take bus No.30 to Old Airport Road. I alight and walk for 1.5 bus stop distance to the KFC. Check with the crew there, but nope, it was not there to be found.

I walk for another 1.5 bus stop distance to catch bus back to my new house. I was alone in the house look high and low for my ring, trying hard to recall where I left it. When was it last time I remove it from my finger. I open up the vacuum cleaner bag and searched. I went through all the stuff that I may have contact with y'day. But to no valid, The ring was nowhere to be found.

I feel so tired and lonely to be doing all these alone.

Poor n Rich Relationship

I have done some soul searching, I ask myself am I that bad? Why she need to treat me this way. I compare over this period how I try to help and show up as hubby's wife (as a family member) while hubby younger brother girlfriend (B.G.F) dun even bother.

After so many things take place, I finally wake up from my naive idea of finding out where went wrong. Actually the answer is simply because I am not as rich as B.G.F. I cannot buy a car, provide a man and send him to university like what B.G.F family can for hubby's younger brother.

Haise.. how can like mother like son really take place in front of me? Hubby use to complaint and ask me not to compare him with my brother-in-law as their income level is different, he ask me not to be like my sis - want pick up a fight. See now all these happen via his mum towards me.

Treat me like shit when I treat them okie, jus cos I am not as rich does it mean I have to humble myself like the 50s to 60s poor daughter-in-law being bullied?? Who is the want who start it off to pick on me and my shortcomings?? (out to look for agruements right??)

Last time when I'm young people use to look down on my family cause we are very poor. My mum got to work as temp maid inorder to take care of us while earn an income. I tell myself next time when I grow up this situation have got to change.

I have always think that I make it since the day I start working. I behave myself no matter in school or at work just to ensure that I make my mum proud. Why should I let hubby's mum mis-treat me and look down on me now?

32.dll

Since yesterday nite discover my laptop got an error message that read like below:
The system DLL user32.dll was relocated in memory. The application will not run properly. The relocation occurred because the DLL C:\Windows\System32\Hhctrl.ocx occupied an address range reserved for Windows system DLLs. The vendor supplying the DLL should be contacted for a new DLL.for a new DLL.

Lucky i manage to find the solution online, via the following link:
http://support.microsoft.com/kb/935448/

RESOLUTION:
To resolve this problem, use one of the following methods. Note Home users should first use method 1. However, if security update 935448 is not installed on the computer by using Automatic Updates or by using Microsoft Update, home users should use method 2.

Method 1: Install update 935448 by using Automatic Updates or by using Microsoft Update
To open Microsoft Update, visit the following Microsoft Web site: (http://update.microsoft.com/microsoftupdate)

Method 2: Install update 935448 from the Microsoft Download Center
The following file is available for download from the Microsoft Download Center:
Download the 935448 package now. (http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?FamilyId=74AD4188-3131-429C-8FCB-F7B3B0FD3D86)

Just Another Day

Life gets pretty boring after some time. Recently I start to look back and realize that I missed life during that period. I use to think that I am lonely than, but now I feel that I was carefree during that period. I can choose to bump around at home or be very diligent in workout.

I think when people said age catch up it is also due to our environment changes and people around us change and we need to change to suit them as well. We cannot forever live in the world of our own. But I do miss it…

If only we can get someone who is willing to share our life in the way we want it how nice can that be… (Dreaming only)

Ohh yar, this evening got Malay class but I forget to bring my notes out. :p

In-Law-Relationship II

Last night have a small talk session with my hubby to work out what had happened recently. Why his mum react this way. We both guess it is not due to a single event, more of a build up. A lot have been told to my hubby about what happen via his god mother. So far what we can conclude is that he did not spend enough time with his family and in turn his mum took it off me.

I feel so unfair. Actually many times I feel very angry with hubby for not spending enough time with me too, but think of his work and his stress I dare not throw my temper but chose to cool myself down. Cos I understand that as one move upward, there will be more responsibilities and working hours will grow.

For the past month I sense the stress of marriage. Even if you dun mean it and really not your problem you will still get it. I remember one weekend I even have a nightmare of losing both my mum and my hubby, I was crying when I woke up. Now I realize that I am under certain unseen stress, I feel bad as I am playing the bad character which I never want to be.

Today in office I am still thinking, why doesn’t his mum think for him? Think of his stress, his working hours and etc… Every young couple nowadays will setup their own family and own their house, when time come they will sure have more commitments and less time, that is the fact of present society isn’t it? Take for example, when his mum was young she also wanted her own small family that’s why she chose to move out with his dad. When her in-laws was not happy about it, they end up never talk to each other isn’t this what she went through years back? Why can’t she understand me now? (If next time I can't understand my son please refer to my own blog... to remind myself)

She thinks I am her family crasher? I took his son away from her? Let me list down the time we have:

From Monday to Friday: Normally my hubby starts work at 7.30 or 8.30am and will work till 8 or 10pm. When he is back he will need time to eat, daze, watch TV, and bath. By then it will be like 12 to 1 am sleeping time.

Saturday and Sunday: Normally I will have one weekend morning for exercise, he will either be with me or he will be alone sleeping till 12pm. Afternoon if have time we will meet up his parents / friends / home doing housework and watch SCV program. My hubby like to play mahjong and since we have a house, most of the time we will invite friends over to play till late and the next morning we will sleep till late.

See that is what I mean. I dun really stop my hubby from meeting his parents, just that we only have 2 days per week for ourselves so what choice do we have?
Now I feel like:

Daughter-in-law = Family Crasher

Isn’t it funny?

Come to think of it could it be I am not suitable to be a daughter-in-law? Cos I like to hang out with friends at time and that is only suitable for single hood life? If take away time for exercise, meeting friends and doing housework then we will have at least 1.5 more days per week for his parents. (But that is definitely not the lifestyle for me) :(

Actually hor, I miss hanging out for Sunday blunch with my family too. Last time my Dad or Brother-in-law will always take the whole family out for a good blunch and I feel so happy being with them. Cos I can go for my early exercise, come back bath then go for a nice family blunch, come home relax or meet friends later. No stress just a happy and relax weekend. Does my mum want to complain?

Think further, if this is the case, how is my hubby going to manage future family life? Next time if we are going to have kids, we will have even lesser time. We will have to divide our time for work, have to take care and spend time with the kids, have our couple time, have family time and friend time. Are we going to say:

Kids = Blood Sucker of Family??

Definitely NOPE! My kids have to be the joy of my family