BGR Inner Self

I remember I did once said that I can be a good girlfriend cum wife, understand the work stress of present society and shall stand by my partner in his hard and stressful time. Then why do I get angry when feel neglected and not being loved?

Even earlier then this, I told a friend that I have not been in relationship cos I am not ready. I am quick tempered and required lots of attention, which I think my future partner will have a hard time pleasing me. I will only be ready when I know how to control myself, able to do more things, shower more care and love for my partner then I required.

All these thoughts only exist in the past and during my cool days. When come to present, I will be overtaken by events and forget all those that I use to tell myself. The thoughts just vanish like they never exist for once.

I lose my cool, lose my calm, and lose the serenity within my inner self. I just feel fully filled with upset and anguish. Need someone who knows me, pamper me, and accompany me…