ROM Soon

Hum... ROM date is drawing nearer and nearer... Finally my mood is here.

All these while I have been very unsure of too many things, therefore dun seem to be in the ROM mood. Anyway since the date is so near, I think I should just let go of all my worries and enjoy this season.

Be a happy bride and everything should go well...

Next week I applied for a lot of half day leave.
Monday, confirm ROM date
Tuesday, my dental appointment
Wednesday, going to dye my hair
Thursday, trying of ROM dress
Friday, go for SPA, manicure and pedicure.

Wow... what a week to go... {^o^}

Meet That Someone

Today I met that someone, which I have been wondering what will it be like seeing him again..

Recently I have been worrying about the pimple on my eye, as it may affect my ROM day makeup. I finally decide to walk out of office to the nearest company clinic and have it removed. While crossing the road, I saw this car passing by at a very slow speed. The number plate look familiar, I look up and was stumped to see his face. Yap it was him, in the car waving at me.

Since the 'goodbye' dinner, for quite some time I have been looking out for his car on the road, in the car park for no reason. I have never been angry with him for his one side decision. I am just loss and puzzled by what has happened all those while. It was a very misty period for me.

He is one of those who let me feel the need to improve myself, and want to climb up the society ladder. He is one of the pioneers who show me part of what quality life is all about.

Upon reaching office, I received his SMS – sorry for not stopping the car as he was rushing home. I replied his SMS. It is just a casual greeting, and that really complete my wondering all these while.

Moody

Well today is not my day... So what if it is Friday? Early in the morning due to some minor issues I got very upset... I start to think a lot.. I dislike a lot of things and feel that people close to me are quite selfish. They spoilt my mood and just walk away without caring. I know it is pointless to get upset, if they don't care about me, why should they be bothered with me getting upset?

On the other hand, it can be due to my short temper and petty character that causes all these feelings to build up. Maybe I should be left alone to think about what is happening to me. Is it work that affect my mood in daily life? Or is it my life itself is affecting my overall mood?

p.s. This morning my mood was really bad and I scolded someone which I should not have. Guess I am actually feeling guilty and sorry about it. Yet I am stubborn to think that it is not entirely my fault.

Sweet Happiness

Yesterday just confirmed of a friend in relationship. Feel so sweet for them. :) It is always nice to think of the 'Honeymoon' period in a relationship. Every morning wake up thinking of him/her make the day so bright. Sweetness of the SMS sent, chatting online and over the phone, holding hand, excited over the next meeting even for simple dinner/movie and etc.. {^o^}

Of all these thoughts come in with thoughts of 'Honeymoon' period with my dear... so sweet...

Marriage

Marriage.. what is it all about? Why some feel so happy, some feel anxiety and some feel nothing. I keep telling myself not to be pressurize by age to get marry, but I do feel old n tired (want to settle down).

Something Past

This Sunday, I was home reading my travel journals... (I like to keep short journal for most of my trips) It bring back lot of my past memories for certain event that take place.. Sometime we wonder what has happen during that period that causes our mood to be up or down. Why didn't we put in more effort or treasure certain things that we do or people, we have around us during that period?

If only we were to spare more time with those that we care and try to understand them, will thing be different today? What will the future be like for the path we chose and the things we do today?

Well, someone told me not to think because there will not be an answer for all the questions I have... Live and be happy with what you have now. Treasure and make the best out of what you have is the most important task at present. What past is meant to be a memory or a lesson learned.

Life Expectation...

This is my first post online for my blog. Why do I want to start a blog and why this topic? Well the answers are all over this blog.
1) I am bore
2) I am feeling lose, cos too many life decisions awaiting for me
3) I want to explore further online

Recently I got feedback from jac that I have very high expectation in life. I know this myself, but that is me. I try to make necessary change but this normally dun last long. There is this saying 'Leopard never change its spot'...