寂寞

为什麽跟他在一起后我变得更寂寞。
觉得自己不再单身，所以少了很多朋友。

Thank God I still have a good friend, who call me will call me up to chat.

New Year Eve

Happy New Year (2007)!!
Boring end of 2006 year…
Because my dear leave me alone to join his OCS friends in some drinking session.

Well I don’t blame him for joining his friends, but I feel upset that he do not understand me after all these while. I like to celebrate on special occasion, and this is considered one as it is New Year day count down. I tried to bring this point across many times.

On Christmas Eve, I was with him attending his friend’s wedding dinner and after that he drove me to Orchard road, although I was disappointed as there was no count down at all. But I am still glad that he was with me all the way, and did try to celebrate with me.

This New Year there is count down in esplanade, I remember I told him but still he didn’t take note of it all. I don’t like to make my partner do things just because I ask him to. How I wish to have a partner who can do thing out of his feeling for me.

I think our frequency is so far apart, we will have to work very hard for each other if we really want to live happily ever after. I am afraid we will only be tired out after all the hard work of trying, and too tired to enjoy life.

Oh, after typing all these, where is my 2007 New Year Resolution? I remember my first New Year resolution was make in 2004, I am not a gal who make new year resolution, my first boyfriend did a count with me in ECP and we wrote our new year resolution there. It was so romantic and memorable.

No matter what, wish everybody a Happy New Year for 2007! {^o^}

Procrastinate

Today in grumpy mood.. Its cold, have been raining for the past few days… I cannot go for my usual weekend jog.

Haise, mum use to say what type of character I dislike most, I will bounce to get meet more of it.
I have to agree with her. I meet with a fiancé, and now a colleague. Why can’t they just get thing done once and for all instead of dragging it, ‘ding dong’ here and there then tell me they forget this and that?

Why they cannot try to understand that this habit of theirs does not goes with the laziness and forgetful nature of human?

Procrastinate and you will never get things done correct and at the right timing.

BGR Inner Self

I remember I did once said that I can be a good girlfriend cum wife, understand the work stress of present society and shall stand by my partner in his hard and stressful time. Then why do I get angry when feel neglected and not being loved?

Even earlier then this, I told a friend that I have not been in relationship cos I am not ready. I am quick tempered and required lots of attention, which I think my future partner will have a hard time pleasing me. I will only be ready when I know how to control myself, able to do more things, shower more care and love for my partner then I required.

All these thoughts only exist in the past and during my cool days. When come to present, I will be overtaken by events and forget all those that I use to tell myself. The thoughts just vanish like they never exist for once.

I lose my cool, lose my calm, and lose the serenity within my inner self. I just feel fully filled with upset and anguish. Need someone who knows me, pamper me, and accompany me…

Dedicate to Dear

Had a huge quarrel with my dear over some minor stuff last night…
Okie I admit I am in wrong also.
Like to throw my ‘小姐脾气’ at times…
And have a quick temper.
I AM SORRY MY DEAR DEAR…

I remember just few days ago, I told a friend - the differences between my Dear Dear and all other guys that I meet so far is… My Dear is my hubby, which means he is the want who will truly love me and take me as I am.

I will try to change, but give me time and help me change over time. I will work hard on this attitude of mine, just like the way I want you to change your bad habits for me. Hope that one fine day we can be perfect partner for each other and form a perfect family. {^o^}

But dear, please note that ladies like to be pamper (I guess no matter at what age or stage).

2006 Run

So far, this year I took part in most number of running events.

20th Aug 2006: Sentosa New Balance Real Run 10km
(1hr and 6mins)

27th Aug 2006: Army Half Marathon 21.1km
(2hrs and 34mins)

03th Dec 2006: Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 42.195km (5hrs 32mins)

Best part is I actually took part in all three events with my Dear...

I think I had most memory for the full marathon, cos we went through a period of weekend training together. I ran with him and his campmates. Towards the last few training, there is even one saturday I blade in ECP to be his mobile water point. And same apply for him the next day when I train with my Marathon kakis. Dear become our mobile water point by delivering water at different point cos we run all the way from ECP to Marina South and back. (35km)

p.s. Dear Dear I Love you, you are the best!!! {^o^}
Thank for what you have done for me during this period.

Load from: http://www.marathon-photos.com/index.html

(Not sure I can do it this way or not... Anyone know can alert me??)

South Korea Montage Blog

Okie, this is going to be a photo Montage blog.. {^o^}

Incheon Airport and traffic to town...


Wonderland (Everland and scenery)


The changing season


South Korea Palace


Meals (Kimchi Kimchi!!!)


Gestures for my honeymoon


Ever changing of South Korea

Live to work or Work to live

Coming to end of November… recently I have been thinking about my future with my present company and what will my future career path be like?

This morning, some very friendly uncles (in their late 50s to early 60s) came in to shampoo the carpet in our office. I believe they are the new vendor engaged for carpet shampooing. Seeing how hard working they are in carrying out their task make me feel that they enjoy doing this job. But when I see how they struggle to bring down the equipment from 3rd level to 1st level, I cannot help but wonder if they ever feel tired of working at their age?

It is good things that at their age they can still find some work that they can and enjoy doing, but on the pessimistic side, what if they are suppose to carry out the tasks that are beyond their ability and they dislike it, yet they have to do it for a living. Won’t that be a bit stressful for them at their age? Cos when age goes up, health deteriorates and opportunities reduced. If you loss this employment, you may not find another. And without employment, what will happen to their life style and family that is depending on them?

People live to work or Work to live?

The Missing Part

Life is always imperfect. That is something I pick up over the years.
Last night my hubby stays out ignoring the fact that my family is out of town, leaving me home alone. Heehee, but never mind at least I have my very own time to chat on MSN with other friends. Manage to catch up with one of my ex-tuition kid, he just completed his 'A' level yesterday, cannot imagine how long ago that was when I taught him during his primary 3 to 6.

Two other guy friends, one we talk about books and people interaction that we came across, past, present, and wonderful times we have together. How time pass and what we miss most? Guess what I was in his missed list :p

Second is Z.F. (my good old friend). we talk about daily stuff, and I told him about my petty temper and lousy mood recently. I told him how my poor hubby suffers for my mood swing and how I worry he is like my ex. Which I thought he understand me, but in fact he do not understand and feel lose in the end decide to leave me. Then come the topic of ‘Perfect Match’, Z.F. still feel that there exist should a thing as ‘perfect match’ and I do not believe now. I think we can only see if the other party is willing to understand and stand by us.

This morning I went to read my email with an attached power point slide, I think it is so meaningful, but it cannot be attached to this blog… the title is ‘The Missing Piece’ It talk about how a circle with missing part actually enjoy her journey in search of the missing part. But when she found it, she realizes with the new found missing piece, she become too perfect to live the happy life that she use to have when on the journey of searching. She learns that without the missing piece, her life has so much meaning in it.

Society

Sometime really wonder why we exist on this planet earth.
Being here living is not so easy, cos a lot of us need to go through a lot.

What is society and what is true life?
Society has no record for who are you as a simple you, and why you exist within it.
They only reserve place for people who can bring income, frame, status and benefit.

Yesterday got a news from my colleague that our previous project manager was force to tender. I feel a bit lousy after that, I cannot explain why but I feel sad for him...

Pre-Honeymoon - South Korea

Have not been blogging for quite sometime. Went for “pre-honeymoon” to Korea. Why a ‘pre-honeymoon? Cos as spoken to my hubby, my honeymoon should be at least a 2 weeks trip to non – Asia counties (preferred Europe). Use to dream of honeymoon in Venice and Vienna.

A lot of people ask me how my trip was. Standard answer is always ‘GOOD’, got trip to go sure good. So how good is good? Is it something that I will keep thinking and talk about? By right ‘pre- honeymoon’ trip has to be second best to honeymoon.

Actually the true is I am not exactly satisfied. But why? What else I’m expecting? Hum... dun know... I feel a lot of disturbance in this trip. I didn’t feel like in the world of two. I know human cannot possibly live in a world of two, but at least just for that week can? In a world of selfish two, filled with sweet romance…

I complaint a lot, for example dear not attentive, not caring and never give me a sweet feeling of romance. He doesn’t really understand why I am upset at times. He always want me to spell in out. That is so tactless of him and pisses me off at times.

I understand that he tried to be caring and did not blame me too much when I dropped his camera, but sorry for I am expecting more then usual during this trip. Guess the best part of this trip is when we went to explore Seoul on our own by taking their MRT and public bus. See this is an example that we are living in the world of our own with all others as stranger. The feeling is great to just have him with me, finding our way back to hotel in the strange land.

Some feeling dear miss out: The feeling of support. He thinks he is great, he is the one who guide me all along. He forgets. I am the one who suggest taking public bus and we are both there supportive of each other. Without me, will he go, will he do it? (What I am sure of is, without him, alone I will not do it) For him, I am not sure. Think he totally forget this part…

To me travel is not only about travel. Travel is about knowledge and experience gain, people we meet, and accompany who is with you.

Photo

Something I all dun know... why will people feel hurt even thought it is stuff of past. while we are suppose to look forward into the future.

Am I now a family to him? Why do I still see 'her' photos around and name as family... Why is it so? What is the point of bringing it up?

Past, present and future. Which is real and most important? Dun they all weigh the same?

Is he too careless, and I think too much that cause should a big gap between us at time.

Man Ego

From http://dictionary.reference.com, I got the following definition:

1. The 'I' or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought.
2. Psychoanalysis. The part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the need and the demands of the social and physical environment.

Today one of my friend (a.k.a z.f) msn me said that he is feeling lousy and asked me out for a drink. He feels lousy as one of the girls, he use to go out with seem to keep a distance from him. Why did the girl keep a distance from him? Well maybe she wanted to be more focus since now there is another guy who dated her out frequently. After all z.f. just date her out as friend and no further.

From what I know, z.f. is not lack of gal friends company (but not in relationship). I asked if he think the girl is the one. Is he prepared to commit and drop all other dates with his gal friends? If yes, then go for it. Yet he cannot answer my question…

Why did he feel lousy then? Is it cos he likes her or just his male ego? Yes, that’s the word – ‘EGO’ cos he feels that the gal has give priority to another guy, that’s why he feels lousy, he did not feel lousy cos he has fell for the girl and wanted to commit in a relationship.

That’s why people want commitment in relationship. This will give you a sense of security and priority over others right?

Contract Part2 - contract validity

In fact this morning right after the visit back to my office, I went online to search for stuff regarding ‘Contract’ and via http://www.business.gov.sg web site I email to ask about the following and was very please with their prompt reply. {^o^}

Question: contract copy

Hi person-incharge,
Will like to seek some advice on contract matters. If a contract is signed and fax over to the company without original mail out, is it consider a valid contract? (the contract may involve dollars and cents)

Thank you

Regards.
- jaceanx -

Dear jaceanx

Thank you for your enquiry dated 19/10/2006.

According to the law in Singapore, a contract should be in its original copy for all parties involved. If there are three parties, there should be three original copies of the contract. A fax copy is not considered as a valid one. Example, in courts, the judges would want to see the original copy. The courts would still take into consideration if the contract is a fax or photocopied copy. However, this contract would not represent a strong evidence for any cases.

It is also advisable to have signatures of all parties on every page to deter people from amending and making changes to the contract.

In depends on the country also. Example, in USA, an email contract can be a strong evidence for court cases.

If you have further enquires regarding contract laws, you can also approach the Enterprise Development Centre or the EDC@ASME which is an advisory centre for aspiring entrepreneurs and current business owners to gain access to a wide range of expert business consultancy services.

The centre offers advisory services such as business registration, business search and matching, business development, financing, management, training and legal services.

The centre may charge a fee depending on the types of services rendered.

For more information on what EDC@ASME can do for your business, you may contact it at 6513 0388 or sme@asme.org.sg.

EDC@ASME is located at:

Association of Small and Medium Enterprises (ASME)
167 Jalan Bukit Merah
Tower 4 #03-13
Singapore 150167
Tel: (65) 6513 0388
Email: sme@asme.org.sg

As for now, there are four EDCs you can approach. For their areas of specialization, please refer to our website at http://www.business.gov.sg
Contact a Business Consultant > EDCs and How They Help Businesses > List of EDCs and their areas of specialization

Should you need further clarification, please do not hesitate to contact us.

Thank you, and have a nice day.
Vivian Ang (Ms)
Customer Service Officer
EnterpriseOne
http://www.business.gov.sg

Hotline: (65) 6898 1800
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See isn’t it informative. {^o^} Thank you for the fast and informative reply.

Contract Part1

Last night finally force myself to go for a weekday short run (have this idea for quite long but never put it into action). Thanks, to my poly pal Z.F. he was one of the encouraging factor, cos he ‘onz’ running with me and we agreed to meet in East Coast Park at 8pm.: p

After our run, hubby called. He said he need to make his way home as his parent was in trouble for signing a wrong advertising contract and need to pay 4k plus. He pick me up at about 10.20pm from East Coast Mac. This evening we stay in my-in-laws place till about 12am to understand and work on what we can do about it.

Situation
My in-laws are in a small business (stationery shop). Last month (September 2006) the advert company (a.k.a SBP in short) sent a letter stating the terms and conditions of the advertise service they provide in the 2-years contract. If they agreed just need to check the company information printed, sign and fax back to them.

As my in-laws are not well verse in English, therefore they mistook it as letter from the ‘Yellow Page’ which previously published they telephone and fax number wrongly and now is seeking their confirmation for the next issue. (Cos SBP logo is yellow and carry the word ‘Singapore’)

They quickly sign and fax it over as there is a cut-off date given. Who know just yesterday they received a invoice asking them to pay $4250 for the fist year edition (the whole contract is for 2 edition) and they are so shocked that they immediately seek help to fully understand the letters and discovered the misunderstanding they have. And to cancel the advert, my in-laws will still need to pay them $4250. ‘Why?’ Well the answer is simple cos they charge 50% of the contract as cancellation fee and the contract is for 2years.
2years = 2 editions
Each edition cost $4250
[($4250*2)* 50% = $4250]
* All the above exclude GST

Immediate action
They immediately went to M.P. and seek help on this case, as there is no way they can pay up this amount. Their business has not been good and every month they are actually losing money due to the stationery shop (history is that my hubby has already throw in 20k of his saving to help his parents, now they really dun have much).

Queries
There are a few things which I still dun quite get it.
1) If this is a 2 years contract which involves 8k plus business, why didn’t the company bother to sent some one to explain to them?
2) With only the fax copy (original still with my in-laws) and no counter sign on a amended phone number in the contract is the contract valid?

Follow up action
As hubby was not free, last night I was assigned the task of accompanying my mother-in-law to the advert company to check out if there is anything we can do about it (Father-in-law was advised not to go with us, just wait drove us there cos his temper was too big, we do not want to make thing look ugly at present stage). First thing in the morning… Arrive at the advert company:
CSx: ‘Hi, we have called yesterday regarding the payment of CSx advert’
SBP: ‘Ohh, you may come in first. Just pull the door’

‘Click’, wow what a heavy glass door I have a hard time pulling it. Walk up the stairs of the shop house (the office was pretty well decorated). Was greet by their staff, look okie quite friendly. Finally a lady, with long straight hair and look refine came in and talk to us. I start the conversation, in mandarin so that my mother-in-law will understand what we are saying.

I explained that the whole thing was misunderstand from my in-laws. Cos they mistook the whole thing as sent by ‘Yellow Page’, they really have no intention to take up such advertisement as the shop is not making any money.

The lady was nice enough to tell us that since they have sent out the invoice, if we will to cancel there might be a cancellation fee involved. She understand that for a small shop to pay this amount maybe too much, what she can try to help is for us to write and fax her supporting documents like account balance for the company (use to submit for tax declaration) and bank statement for the shop, to prove that it is really beyond the shop ability to pay for this advertising amount and waive the cancellation charges. She agreed to hold the reminder invoice till 25th Oct 2006 (Wed) for us, while we try to get all these documents prepared.

Feedbacks from my mum, why do some companies and government agencies forget the fact that not all Singapore citizens understand English? (E.g. age 45 and above.) Suddenly I realise, yap my mum got a point. Shouldn’t a contract be valid only if it is draft in the language understood by the person who is signing it? Or should the contract be only valid if the person who draft it / sent it out explain to the person who sign it? (Especially important for contracts that involve dollars and cents)

Blogs

After so much for my next stage in life, not back at work…

Recently was busy at work…
Although have been tied up with all my logic @ work, but like my usual self I like to find things irrelevant to read for leisure. (heehee.. think of my school days when near exam, I will entertain myself with novels)

Today I went to read blinkymummy, xiaxue and kennysia blog. They all have their own way and style of writing. Among them I am impressed by what is written by kennysia, but blinkymummy blog is closer to my environment and daily life.

Guess what, I think for my blog I should write more on current affairs and my present surrounding. Only then will I improve my writing while gaining more knowledge on the topic.

ROMed

I have ROM. Now consider married. No long ‘Miss’, a few friends have been teasing me... "Now is Mrs/Mdm". Hum... I feel so much older in that salutation.

The greatest challenge come when filling in form, cos now I am not ‘Miss’ and no long single. Other than this nothing much change, cos I am still living with Dad and Mum tentatively. Our matrimony house is not ready yet (we have got ourselves a re-sale flat, but have not book for our first appointment).

As I have informed my mum, next time even if I move out they must still reserve my room for me. {^o^} hee... still as greedy. I am so frighten that I lose my own private space. I think the only place where I can maintain my own personal space is at Dad and Mum place.
I dun know how my other half will treat me next time. Of course I hope that he can be as good to me as now from ROM day till the last day of my life. I hope our life will not be intruded. I look forward to our life together...

Past Yet Brothering

Recently I happen to know of something, which makes me think very lowly of this guy personality. I ask myself a few questions:

1) How can a guy said he feel lose when he is about to start a new life with his girlfriend. (Shouldn’t he feel great and looking forward to his married life?)

2) How can he propose to his girlfriend while on the other hand tell his ex how he miss their past?

I really feel this kind of guy is horrible... :( Yet in the past, I use to innocently think that he is an introvert that's why have a lot of issues not shared. Now I feel that it is not due to his introvert character, it is more like he has many things that he dare not expose in daylight.

Perfect

Life itself is never meant for perfect. If life itself is imperfect, why don't we at least strive for 'near perfect'? Someone ever told me, imperfect itself can be beautiful if you know how to appreciate.

In my past entry I mention 'high expectation', is that a way to express the want of perfection? (I thought so) I always feel that without expectation one will not improve.

Now I know my life may not be as perfect as I want or have imagined it to be, but being happy is enough. Why is there a need for perfect? On the other hand I ask myself, is there a need to settle for something not up to my standard for 'near perfect' cos I want to hold on the current happiness? How do I know I am not scarifying my future for this current (which is not perfect to me presently)? How do I know I will/will not find something more perfect than this? This brings in another statement I heard of: 'Life is all about decision...'

ROM Soon

Hum... ROM date is drawing nearer and nearer... Finally my mood is here.

All these while I have been very unsure of too many things, therefore dun seem to be in the ROM mood. Anyway since the date is so near, I think I should just let go of all my worries and enjoy this season.

Be a happy bride and everything should go well...

Next week I applied for a lot of half day leave.
Monday, confirm ROM date
Tuesday, my dental appointment
Wednesday, going to dye my hair
Thursday, trying of ROM dress
Friday, go for SPA, manicure and pedicure.

Wow... what a week to go... {^o^}

Meet That Someone

Today I met that someone, which I have been wondering what will it be like seeing him again..

Recently I have been worrying about the pimple on my eye, as it may affect my ROM day makeup. I finally decide to walk out of office to the nearest company clinic and have it removed. While crossing the road, I saw this car passing by at a very slow speed. The number plate look familiar, I look up and was stumped to see his face. Yap it was him, in the car waving at me.

Since the 'goodbye' dinner, for quite some time I have been looking out for his car on the road, in the car park for no reason. I have never been angry with him for his one side decision. I am just loss and puzzled by what has happened all those while. It was a very misty period for me.

He is one of those who let me feel the need to improve myself, and want to climb up the society ladder. He is one of the pioneers who show me part of what quality life is all about.

Upon reaching office, I received his SMS – sorry for not stopping the car as he was rushing home. I replied his SMS. It is just a casual greeting, and that really complete my wondering all these while.

Moody

Well today is not my day... So what if it is Friday? Early in the morning due to some minor issues I got very upset... I start to think a lot.. I dislike a lot of things and feel that people close to me are quite selfish. They spoilt my mood and just walk away without caring. I know it is pointless to get upset, if they don't care about me, why should they be bothered with me getting upset?

On the other hand, it can be due to my short temper and petty character that causes all these feelings to build up. Maybe I should be left alone to think about what is happening to me. Is it work that affect my mood in daily life? Or is it my life itself is affecting my overall mood?

p.s. This morning my mood was really bad and I scolded someone which I should not have. Guess I am actually feeling guilty and sorry about it. Yet I am stubborn to think that it is not entirely my fault.

Sweet Happiness

Yesterday just confirmed of a friend in relationship. Feel so sweet for them. :) It is always nice to think of the 'Honeymoon' period in a relationship. Every morning wake up thinking of him/her make the day so bright. Sweetness of the SMS sent, chatting online and over the phone, holding hand, excited over the next meeting even for simple dinner/movie and etc.. {^o^}

Of all these thoughts come in with thoughts of 'Honeymoon' period with my dear... so sweet...

Marriage

Marriage.. what is it all about? Why some feel so happy, some feel anxiety and some feel nothing. I keep telling myself not to be pressurize by age to get marry, but I do feel old n tired (want to settle down).

Something Past

This Sunday, I was home reading my travel journals... (I like to keep short journal for most of my trips) It bring back lot of my past memories for certain event that take place.. Sometime we wonder what has happen during that period that causes our mood to be up or down. Why didn't we put in more effort or treasure certain things that we do or people, we have around us during that period?

If only we were to spare more time with those that we care and try to understand them, will thing be different today? What will the future be like for the path we chose and the things we do today?

Well, someone told me not to think because there will not be an answer for all the questions I have... Live and be happy with what you have now. Treasure and make the best out of what you have is the most important task at present. What past is meant to be a memory or a lesson learned.

Life Expectation...

This is my first post online for my blog. Why do I want to start a blog and why this topic? Well the answers are all over this blog.
1) I am bore
2) I am feeling lose, cos too many life decisions awaiting for me
3) I want to explore further online

Recently I got feedback from jac that I have very high expectation in life. I know this myself, but that is me. I try to make necessary change but this normally dun last long. There is this saying 'Leopard never change its spot'...